Day 16. Someone from your childhood

"You are so brave and so quiet I forget you are suffering"

Some people are stronger than others. I learnt this when I realised that you wake up everyday and face your days without the person you love the most. You inspire me. That is rare, but you inspire me to remember who I am and why I am here. That there are things bigger than me. Stronger than me. You remind me that I am just another grain in the sand but that does not make me any less important.

You are my oldest friend. But this is not a friendship measured in years but in tears, hugs, fears, joys, dreams, achievements, and a celebration of one another. It is one dose admiration, two shots of faith, a dash of trust, mixed with respect. That is how we have made it. By remembering that we are people with places to go and things to do. :)

P. S congratulations on the new car. Keep it going my love. I am praying for you.

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