Day 8 a letter to someone you’re watching fall

Dear Angel,

If someone had told me that on your 18^th birthday I would have to remind myself not to call you out or tell you you’re wrong thirteen years ago I would’ve laughed. We would have laughed. I would have told them that you have cried in my arms way too many times for pretences. That we have shared too many diary pages for lies.

If someone had told me years ago that I needed to “get you” I would have “got them”. If they said “she will crumble if you do not save her” I would have showed them your straight As, your trophies and asked you to ask them wtf in two different languages. But here we are... and I’m watching you fall. Too scared to save you Or tell you.

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